[ majimas quiet for a long moment. "focusing on driving" as adults do. ultimately, he decides not to treat her like a child but to voice his actually feelings: ]
He was like my brother, but he wasn't my brother. His name was Saejima.
[ he says it like he's still getting used to the sound. sa-e-ji-ma. ]
In my memories, sometimes... people would make these promises to each other. Really big promises, like, "I promise to be with you until we die." "I promise to always take care of you." And someone you made that promise to, they were your kyoudai. Saejima was mine.
Huh... Sounds like something you'd say to Kaz. Or me and Chiyo and Yaboku.
[ Like family, right? She understands that sort of connection, although more in an "I would kill for you" sort of way than just passively being there for one another. ]
[ majima nods. it's definitely like Family. the word just meant sibling. brother. but it was more than that, too. he's pretty sure the bonds in the yakuza were unbreakable ]
Yeah, I guess it is like somethin' I'd say ta Kiryu-chan.
[ She tries her best to imagine somebody like Kiryu, but twice as tall and three times as wide, cats on his back. It makes for a somewhat ridiculous image, but she nods to herself anyways, until- ]
[ whatever the reason, i betrayed ya - he remembers so vividly telling him that. not explaining why he'd done it. goading him on because he'd wanted....he'd wanted saejima to kill him. he remembers that feeling, too. ]
We were supposed to do something together. An' I didn't go. Everythin' ended up on his shoulders.
You wouldn't betray anybody unless you absolutely, absolutely had to! I know it! Something happened and you couldn't right? Even though you wanted to go!
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I remembered someone.
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Who?
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[ he says it like he's still getting used to the sound. sa-e-ji-ma. ]
In my memories, sometimes... people would make these promises to each other. Really big promises, like, "I promise to be with you until we die." "I promise to always take care of you." And someone you made that promise to, they were your kyoudai. Saejima was mine.
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[ Like family, right? She understands that sort of connection, although more in an "I would kill for you" sort of way than just passively being there for one another. ]
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Yeah, I guess it is like somethin' I'd say ta Kiryu-chan.
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He's bigger than Kiryu-chan. He's build like a mountain - an' he's got a tiger, instead of a dragon.
[ but her second question, he shakes his head ]
Nah, me and Kiryu-chan met later, I guess. Saejima was in jail, too.
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How come all your bros are in jail?
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[ he says it so mechanically, so matter of fact. The sky is blue. The grass is green. He hurts the people he loves. ]
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[ And this time too? She's so sure if he tells her what happened, she can find a crack in it, that there's no way that Majima could be at fault. ]
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[ whatever the reason, i betrayed ya - he remembers so vividly telling him that. not explaining why he'd done it. goading him on because he'd wanted....he'd wanted saejima to kill him. he remembers that feeling, too. ]
We were supposed to do something together. An' I didn't go. Everythin' ended up on his shoulders.
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[ he says it like he agrees that something happened, but not that he agrees that he didn't betray him. ]
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[ It's not betrayal if it didn't come from the heart. If he didn't mean to. ]
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So what's his name?
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[ Yo, don't run away from this conversation??? ]
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Chicken Nugget? Kiryu-chan named his name chicken Nugget, too, is this the pet name of the year or some shit?
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[ Math................ She stares down at her hands, over at Majima's hands on the steering wheel. ]
Let me borrow your fingers real quick.
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[ aka chicken nuggets; it's a miracle he's still hanging on ]
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